My husband (yes I'm married, far from happily) bought
an online game, a game I thought was really stupid,
I even told him to put it back, it's a good thing
he didn't listen. I watched him play for a few months
and was interested in chatting myself. So I did,
after being a part of this game for almost a year,
I met some awesome friends. I guess you could say I
was looking for something and I found it. I also
put up with losers hitting on the sexy character
I had picked for myself, but something made me stay.
I met the sweetest guy, Jeremy. We played along
with the game very well for the time we stayed
there. We got "married" on the game and all of our
friends came to see the event. From the first day I
saw him he had my heart.
Everyone thought we were so cute how we sit in the corner
of the most popular room. That's how we started
chatting, he always wanted to sit in MY corner,
so it started play fighting and I always made fun of
his little typos. Before I knew it he was buying
me roses from the giftshop of the game, by the
time we left the game I had over 1200 roses, all from
him. It sounds really silly but they meant so
much to me, it was the most he could've given
me, at the time.
After the first few months we decided to exchange pictures.
He was so adorable, and so very sexy, we were
both very pleased. Things always got better and
neither of us had to try. A bunch of our friends wanted
to try voice chat, so we joined in. Oh my god
his voice was so soothing to me.
I couldn't get enough of it. Our visits to the game
diminished and so did the time we spent with our
friends. I was so wrapped up in his love I couldn't
concentrate on anything else.
I ordered a Cartouche, its a pendant that's supposed
to have your name on one side in english and your
name in Egyptian on the other, well I ordered
mine special and got his name on the other side in Egyptian
(so no one would know what it said) I broke it
in half and sent him half of it. We wear these
close to our hearts, only we know what it means.
We still to this day talk about the "boom" we feel when
we're together. It's the best feeling anyone could
have. There was only one down side to all of this,
I got so scared, I mean, I am married, and so is he.
I thought it would be for the best if we didn't
chat anymore, I was getting too attached. I tried
leaving him 3 times and I felt so bad, I couldn't go
through with it. We were only apart for 24 hours at
a time and it seemed like a lifetime. I didn't
eat, I couldn't sleep, I walked around like a
zombie, during those times I didn't even turn the computer
on. I couldn't stand being online without him.
I finally got up enough guts to see if he had
tried contacting me and he did, every time. He was feeling
just as bad as I was, if not worse. I have never
in my life felt so empty and alone as I did when
we were apart.
I have decided not to back-pedal anymore, because I
know it won't work. We have something so great
and I would never ever trade that for anything. He
is my best friend, my soul mate, my lover (a form of
cybering I guess, on voice, hands free). Smile.
We are secret lovers, btw, that's one of our songs.
We have talked about meeting, but we know what
will happen. The sexual attraction is so great,
we wouldn't be able to contain ourselves. We talk a
lot about it, how that first hug will be so intense,
just thinking about it now brings tears to my
eyes. Even though life has dealt us sucky decks, I believe
we will be together for real one day, if there
is a god and true love exists, we will be.
We have our real lives for now and it's not going to
change in the near future, but I always have hope.
We aren't hurting anyone, being together online we
are much happier, real lives included. We not only want
each other, we need each other and that's never
going to change. We have been together a year
now and every day that passes, we are closer, and more
To everyone that is alone in this world, don't give up, you too can find
your soul mate. Thank you for letting me share. :)